Embarrassment and shame can lie beneath who we are and how we behave in the world. As I approach a milestone birthday this year, I’ve had to face the daunting reality of starting over at 50. Shame can make us feel we are not worthy of better, or it can make us believe that we are not good enough to exist even at times. My own shame and embarrassment has…
View PostListen above or tune in on Apple Podcasts or Podbean EPISODE 106 – PODCAST TRANSCRIPT Hi there, welcome back to Kelly Martin Speaks. I’m your host Kelly Martin and this is episode 106. Today I’m going to talk about judgements and how they can hold us back in life. Judgement, I think we have all been guilty of this, in fact being human makes it impossible not to pass judgements.…
View Post“Not this again,” I’d catch myself saying. It was usually after a triggering event like someone parking my car in the driveway or when I felt unseen or excluded. I’d feel really pissed about it. I mean, how dare they! How could they be so rude? So inconsiderate? This reaction may seem pretty intense and I’m not going to sugar coat it, recovery from trauma is intense. Once that can…
View PostHow To Free The Inner Child From The ‘Grown-Up’ Prison Filled with inhibitions? Crippling self-consciousness? Frightened to surrender control to the unknown? In my earlier years, I was taught not only are children ‘seen but not heard’ but that the natural flamboyant, free, wild child inside was embarrassing to those adults around me. So from around the age 3-4 years old, I tamed my spirit and the wildness was locked…
View PostFor as long as I can remember my menstrual cycle just hasn’t felt right. My period started at age 13 and every month it came with extreme cramping. Back then I don’t think doctors knew much about PCOS (Polycystic Ovary Syndrome) or conditions like endometriosis and so I took 2-3 days off school when it came on during a school week. I would cry, rolling around on the floor at…
View Post‘Tis the season to be jolly’ apparently right now. Christmas is coming fast and this year I decided to make some gifts for people in a group I am a member of. Crafts and artistic creations. So I bought all the stuff needed, well I thought I needed, and this afternoon I sat down to start creating. What Happened? Perfectionism hit. My entire body got tense. Nothing I tried would…
View PostSo things were moving smoothly, you felt like change was happening, you could see that life was unfolding, the old illusory you was shifting, you felt better about who you were, you felt your purpose was unfolding, you felt more connected to others, more confident, more social and BAM! The death cycle hits you. I’m in the midst of what feels like a death cycle. I often feel we follow the seasons of…
View PostIt’s tough going when your reputation is on the line. The ego likes to get you in its grip and tries to get you to do something to get your reputation back, but why? If people are going to judge you, no amount of trying is going to change their minds. Some people like to validate their points of view, so will take on whatever information or gossip they are…
View Post“What you run from you run into” ~ Nikita Tweet This!It can be hard to acknowledge and accept that you’re not a ‘good’ person. I pride myself on being a ‘good’ person, thinking if I haven’t got what everyone else has (home of my own, regular income, relationship, family, confidence) at least I’m a ‘good’ person. When you’ve been carrying such a heavy ‘failure’ story for so long, to be…
View PostI hold my hands up, I ignored red flags to experience my first fall into love, but I wouldn’t change a thing. I emerged into love, I embraced love, I felt love, my heart opened and flowered in ways I had never felt before and for this I am grateful to my past lover, but this does not mean I have not also learnt a lot from the experience. What…
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