While exploring the whole .... Continued on from Vulnerability Series Part 1 : Fear
Belonging - feeling unsafe to belong.
Better to not risk belonging because belonging equals the potential for being hurt and rejected. So to not allow myself to belong in any group, tribe or circle means no more rejection or hurt.
And in doing so, cutting off my connection to the abundance and support that the whole can give to me.
In essence I have already been rejected by my pushing away any chance of belonging to a tribe. So why not allow myself to feel safe to belong, and so in this belonging feel the support of the whole.
I am risking my wholeness by pushing people away. So better to embrace belonging and risk rejection, for rejection is merely taking place inside my own self anyway.
~Kelly Martin's inner dialogue
This past few weeks haven't been easy for me I have been moving away from a life of practically full-on solitude for the past 4 years + to coming back into the circle of humanity. I started doing this by joining a local laughter yoga class, but while it was good, it was a short class that alllowed no getting to know the other people. People would drop in occasionally, sometimes not coming back; we would do the laughter yoga and that was it, everyone left and returned to their respective homes.