Thursday, 2 July 2015

Maybe You're Not A Good Person?



"What you run from you run into" ~ Nikita Tweet This!


It can be hard to acknowledge and accept that you're not a 'good' person. I pride myself on being a 'good' person, thinking if I haven't got what everyone else has (home of my own, regular income, relationship, family, confidence) at least I'm a 'good' person.

When you've been carrying such a heavy 'failure' story for so long, to be bluntly told by a good friend that you have many qualities of a 'not good' person it can pull the rug from beneath you in a big way.

Saturday, 27 June 2015

Beautiful Noise - Birdsong and Hedge Trimmers


While sitting in the garden, the blackbird sings its beautiful song, my heart opens. Moments later my neighbour starts mowing his lawn, my teeth clench, and once done he starts trimming his bushes with an electric trimmer and irritation and anger arise.

What's The Difference?

Saturday, 20 June 2015

From Broken Heart to Whole Heart

From Heartbreak to whole heart infinity


After I split from my last partner I cried a river. It came as a complete surprise to me as logically the relationship had only lasted 3 months and I have been in much longer ones, but I know I was a different person this time.

Previous heartbreak occurred 15+ years ago because I had consciously chosen to be single for some time. In many ways I needed such a long time to re-build myself, awaken to my truth and to grieve the loss of my father.


Thursday, 4 June 2015

Ignoring Red Flags For Love

Ignoring Red Flags For Love 20

I hold my hands up, I ignored red flags to experience my first fall into love, but I wouldn't change a thing. I emerged into love, I embraced love, I felt love, my heart opened and flowered in ways I had never felt before and for this I am grateful to my past lover, but this does not mean I have not also learnt a lot from the experience.

What do I want?
What don't I want?

And most importantly recognising the signs when  a relationship is not good for me earlier on. But again, I would not turn back the clock because my heart showed me love, divine love pure love pouring out from within me. I know what it feels like now, and I have no regrets.

Monday, 18 May 2015

Why I've Been Quiet (Do not read if squeamish!)

QUIET SAD WOMAN

Sometimes life throws you challenges and sometimes it's not easy coping when they come. As many of you know from reading my book and my blog, my life has not been a smooth running life, like many reading this I imagine. Life has given me many opportunities to accept what is, to embrace my reality and to find a tenderness in what takes place.

Thursday, 30 April 2015

Z Is For ZEN

AtoZCHALLENGE Z ZEN


Yippee!! Today is the last day of the challenge and 26 posts later. I am very pleased that I got this far and did not miss one day and was not even a day late. So today, ZEN. 

Wednesday, 29 April 2015

Y Is For YOUTHFUL

AtoZChallenge YOUTHFUL Y

Next year I turn 40 and for most of the time I look around at people my own age and I don't feel that age at all. Inside me is a 25 year old who is now re-living her misspent youth.

When I was a teenager I had a hard challenging time, like most teenagers, but I did not feel I fully lived my youth. I was also quite a shy child pre-teen and did not get to enjoy the fun and play many children did as I spent most of my time hiding or playing on my own. Now, I feel I have a new lease of life and the youthfulness is emerging as I become more my true self and I am being more and more authentic daily.

Tuesday, 28 April 2015

X Is For XOXO (TOP 10 HUGS and Kisses)

 
Hugs and kisses atozchallenge

Okay, sooo... as I am coming to the end of this blogging challenge I am cheating today. My theme is feelings and apart from Xenophobic and X'd out I chose something on a list of adjectives and one word was XOXO, totally cheating.

XOXO stands for kisses and hugs and totally unrelated to feelings, but well.. I feel kissable and and huggable sometimes so why not?

Sometimes I just need a hug.
Sometimes I just can't stop kissing.

“That's what people do who love you. They put their arms around you and love you when you're not so lovable.” 
                                                                                                         ― Deb Caletti

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