Yesterday I picked an Osho card that was quite deep and fairly immense in terms of a message, and it re-confirmed another message I had received from a gentlemen who leads a mediumship circle I have recently become involved in.
Part of the Osho message said:
When we carry a load of shoulds and shouldn′ts imposed on us by others we become like this ragged, struggling figure trying to make his way uphill. ″Go faster, try harder, reach the top!″ shouts the foolish tyrant he carries on his shoulder, while the tyrant himself is crowned with an imperious rooster. If life these days feels like just a struggle from the cradle to the grave, it could be time to shrug your shoulders and see what it feels like to walk without these characters on your back. You have your own mountains to conquer, your own dreams to fulfill, but you will never have the energy to pursue them until you release yourself from all the expectations you′ve gathered from others but now think are your own. Chances are they exist only in your own mind, but that doesn′t mean they can′t weigh you down. It′s time to lighten up, and send them on their way.
This re-confirmed the message I was given at circle. I was told by spirit that I needed to be more aggressively, bluntly, fully myself. And to some, the word aggressive may seem unkind, but I knew exactly the message spirit was conveying. Still a recovering people-pleaser, I recognise in myself that I speak and communicate often against my own feelings. I have always had a smile on my face regardless of how I am feeling. And one time my best friend saw me walking along the street, and one of the few times I decided to intentionally relax my face when walking, he interpreted it as I was looking pissed off or fed-up.