Many people may have vivid feelings of freedom as a child, me? Not so much. I remember playing and having fun as a young child, but I was also racked with this feeling of physical restriction, like I was held back by something. I used to walk with a bent back, never held my head high because of life experiences early on and being picked on for being tall. Freedom was something I craved, more than anything I crave to express myself freely.
Some of us who are extra sensitive to the world, maybe we are shy, introverted or simply conditioned from an early age to keep quiet and be 'good', can mean we feel rigid and frozen inside our bodies. We watch as other grown ups or children move freely, they shout; they scream; they sing at the top of their lungs and are able to be the centre of attention we secretly wish we could be.
I always felt there was this free spirit within me locked inside a cage, but what i'm learning is it's never to late to feel free. We can start at any age, we can be a child again whenever we feel like it and we can begin to remove the shackles of conditioning and restriction at any time.
I am 39 soon and I have been inwardly requesting the universe for playmates and opportunities that can bring out the child within me. The Universe answered in the form of new female friends and a new lover. Most of my new friends are childlike and laugh lots and I was so pleased when they came into my life. I was ready to drop the seriousness of the spiritual path, which can, to be honest, be too serious and too self-reflective. Prior to meeting these new people many of my friends were more serious and not as playful, but back then I was not ready to let my inner child out.
My inner child never felt safe to come out and play in the past, but when people around you encourage this, the child starts to slowly bit-by-bit feel safe to be free again.
So what is freedom to me?
I love to dance.... the below video I made for a competition I entered on the subject of being fabulous.
|May Hill in Gloucestershire|
|The beaches of my birth place in North East England...|
This post is part of my A to Z blogging challenge drop
by tomorrow to see what the letter G will be about.