Wednesday, 11 May 2011
Yesterday I posted a blog about my trip to the dentist's chair and I awoke this morning with this feeling of terror arising. Not so much to do with the visit to the dentist but moreso a fear of what will happen, what will they say and how will I look after the cleaning?
Sometimes fear can be mind numbing, body numbing. It grips you and you cannot think straight. All sorts of scenarios float through your mind (or in my case this morning flood through my mind like a raging river).
When in the midst of such fear, any fear, it is not a time for positive thinking. When numbed by the energy of panic we have no recollection of possible positive outcomes; we simply revel in the fear based scenarios. So I am here to challenge myself to WELCOME FEAR.
This fear has come at a time of other fears to do with communication and self expression. My teeth, my mouth, it's all the same subject. I made the mistake of checking out dental websites this morning (if I wasn't fuelling the fear enough by my own resistance to it) and images of potential happenings have flooded me.
Who is scared?
The mind, the ego, the small me,
It simply doesn't like what it see's.
Whatever happens I will face it,
I will allow myself to embrace it.
Using Byron Katie's Four Questions and the turnarounds.
Fear - 'Teeth may fall out, roots may show, everyone will see'
1. Is this true? Yes
2. Can I absolutely know that its true? Yes.
How do I feel when I think these thoughts? Frightened, numb, scared, panicky.
Who would I be without these thoughts?
I would feel peace, living in the moment, not fearing the future, I would feel happy within myself, content. I would be myself around others.
Turn this around:
My teeth will not fall out.
My negative thinking may fall away.
The fear may fall away.
The roots may not show.
My thinking shows.
I may get to the root of the problem and find peace within it.
Everyone may see my beautiful smile and eyes.
Nobody will see.
So it is a great probabillity that everything will be far better than my mind has me imagining.
And whatever is happening, it's all unfolding perfectly.
I was guided to the dentist.
I had a female dentist which I energetically requested within myself.
She was straight and direct with me, offering me knowledge.
I now have the power of this knowledge to do something about it.
I am taking better care of my teeth and gums now.
Even if she cleans my teeth and there are changes, these changes are necessary and unfolding perfectly for me at this time.
I embrace myself with love.
I allow this fear.
I WELCOME fear.
This too shall pass.
See My Other Post ' Treat Fear As A Small Child'