As I sat by the river today, it felt a good time to practice the Hawaiian healing technique called Ho'oponopono.
Ho'oponopono (ho-o-pono-pono) is an ancient Hawaiian practice of reconciliation and forgiveness. Similar forgiveness practices were performed on islands throughout the South Pacific, including Samoa, Tahiti and New Zealand
I was feeling lack-full in town today and sorrow arose. I walked into a shop and some music was playing. The lyrics were 'Hey little girl, when are you going to let your life change?' And so I sat by the river letting feelings flow and using Ho'oponopono.
I repeated the phrase "I'm sorry, please forgive me, I love you, thankyou". And as the lack-full feeling was related to money and 'wanting' again, I felt perhaps I could do some on the guilt to do with my father and maybe with my inner child who feels I blame her. Some tears fell and maybe that is all I needed for that time.
I feel with any kind of resistance we cannot force release. It's like pushing a young child to walk further than she is ready when taking her first steps. And maybe with forgiveness it's not so much the words that count but the feeling inside. Maybe the great nourishment and love we are able to receive is the simply acknowledgement that the feeling is there and wanting to be welcomed, not resisted.
I feel sometimes that on the spiritual path too many of us use techniques, affirmations, tools to escape the rawness of the love that is the very emotion we are running away from.
Our pain may only be pain when we fight against the current of the awareness it is bringing to us.
Later today after I initially posted this blog I did some more Ho'oponopono. It felt the right time to do it. I recalled memories of receiving the phone call from my Aunt when my dad died. I recalled other memories and feelings and I wept. Good tears. Tears of loving awareness and nurturing.