I spend most days alone.
With the exception of sharing a home with my friend Mike, at most 5 days of those I am walking in nature, being simply with myself, the birds, bees and Mother Earth.
Many days it is a wonderous experience, exploring, enjoying nature, animals and all the creatures that walk or fly on my path. Occastionally, I have a very strong inner response, that of aching loneliness.
While I understand there is a difference between being lonely (which is a state of mind) and being alone which is me simply walking. I came to the conclusion it is my human personality, mind that defines what state of being I am experiencing.
I imagine loneliness would not exist if we did not have a way of looking at our worlds and lives through eyes of comparison. And yet also if we did not have comparison, or desires for difference, we would not be human.
A good friend sent me a channelled message today, something I tend not to read anymore, but this message really made sense to me in my walks of solitude and aloneness.
Channelled by someone called Tyberon a short segment said this:
Solitude is intended to be a period of sublime reverence of self. Your life and your experience in this plane is your own creation, your own living tapestry, woven by your individual belief. Within solitude, the soul is prompted into self-review, and opportunity is given to dive deeply into the deep waters that flow within you. To swim in the ocean of SELF, and in so doing rediscover the love within, to learn what a brilliant spark of God you truly are.I know, I have a way to walk to embrace my own solitude right now.
Relationships are a method of reflecting the affectivity of your belief system, and giving you feedback on what, simply stated, is working, and what is not. Detachment requires the individual to explore the self, to reacquaint with the inner horizon, and this facilitates and necessitates sovereignty. Sovereignty is the prepotency of Mastership.
A relationship of two sovereign nondependent humans has greater balance, greater creativity, and greater longevity than a pairing of two beings co-dependent on one another. Do you understand?
So, while my mind sometimes still shouts; "get out of the alone time and fill it with people and busyness" I recognise my mind is simply wanting control back. Being on my own, without distractions, just birds singing, silence, beauty, I am walking with me, source energy, life force. And within my walks, coming face to face to what many people fear, being alone.
From the same channelling:
It is the very sense of resulting loneliness that so often feels bittersweet and hollow, that compels you to seek the rich ocean of wisdom available to you in rediscovering the vast solace within your own divinity.Perhaps, indeed, I am not just walking with me, but I am walking within me and like any new territories it will feel different and scary to begin with.
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